Sound of Music

What a day! It's been the worst ever. However at 9:00pm I went to bed and turned on the radio to listen to a series of wonderful programmes on musicals. The one I'm listening to right now is about The Sound of Music. It had me wanting to watch it again and if I weren't ill I'd like to have danced down the stairs. Oh dear, is this the effect of the chemo again! I'm now up and sitting in the living room listening to the end of the documentary. Thank heavens that BBC radio had something other than retrospectives on a rather difficult year.

This has been a day of music and I suppose that music can do so much to keep you going. The first DVD that i watched was Bride and Prejudice. Writing this reminds me that I listened to a wonderful programme on World Service (The Ticket)in the middle of the night last night about music for film and it included a section on Bollywood. The second DVD was Delovely, the bio-musical on Cole Porter. There was a wonderful cathartic moment at the end that allowed me to have a good cry which I was really in need of! (Sorry to those who don't like prepositions at the end of sentences!)

I am trying to look positively on the year ahead. However, the pain at the moment makes it hard. I know that I only have two more sessions of chemo but how much worse will each be. Then of course there's the radiotherapy. I do know that I have learned a lot from this experience but I'd rather look on that at some later date. Am I wallowing in self pity? No, I think I'm just trying to get through one day at a time at the moment.