Run up to Christmas

I'll start by thanking Emjay for a posting a comment yesterday about poaching fish. Sounds good and I'm going to try it.

The fog is still with us but it is not as intense. Travellers are beginning to fly out of Heathrow and hopefully all will be home for Christmas. I have the supermarket to endure today. I would have done it all earlier in the week but I only have an under the counter fridge so I can't store that much. I also thought that it would be best to buy the fish as close to Christmas as possible. However, I won't buy it at the supermarket. There's an excellent fish monger in Virginia Water.

I have baking to do as well. I'm not making cookies this year since I was given so many in my hampers but I did promise Emma some brownies and my famous rhubarb and strawberry pie. I think that I'll shop today and cook tomorrow. I only have a certain amount of energy and I don't want to use it up all in one go.

I must admit that I don't feel very Christmasy this year and that's a shame since I really enjoy Christmas. I haven't gotten around to putting up a tree and the only other decorations are the cards and a wreath. Cliff and I decided for the first time not to do stockings for each other. I know it's the logical thing to do but I'm really going to miss them. I think I like the stockings more than anything else.

I think that part of the problem is that I have been thinking far to much about the chemo next Thursday. I suppose that it's because the last time I was so sick and depressed. I'm sure that I can overcome that this time by not tiring myself out. However, it hangs over me at the moment.