New Year's Day

On New Year's Eve, I thought that I would spend today in some sort of reflection. Instead, I spent it either passed out on the sofa or in bed. Fatigue caught up with me and until after dinner I could barely stay awake for more than 15 or 20 minutes. I seem to be back to normal physically now but I'm in no state to reflect.

(January 3rd)
Three days later and I'm not doing a lot better. I have had some time to think about what I should be reflecting on. Resolutions! I've decided not to have any this year. (However, to be truthful, resolutions are a hard habit to break!) Instead of resolutions, I'm trying to concentrate on what I might have learned over the last year.

I haven't learned how to lower my blood pressure. You're right, this is not something that I have learned, rather something that I've learned that I don't know how to do. Does it not seem odd to you, it does to me, that my doctor puts me on pills for high blood pressure but does not tell me how I might lower my blood pressure. I don't want to spend the rest of my life on pills. He tells me that one doesn't cure high blood pressure, just treat it. I'm not sure that I believe that. So, I have learned that I don't know how to lower my blood pressure which leads me to the decision (we won't call it a resolution) that I am going to find out this year.

I have been writing this blog for over a year now. I sometimes wonder why. However, if I am still doing it, I must have a need for it. I have learned that writing in times of stress and confusion helps me to work through them. Writing also allows me to explore certain ideas or situations. I have started to keep an off-line journal as well for those issues I don't want to share with the world. So, I will continue!

(More another day!)